Wonder

Sometimes I wonder. What did I do wrong? I might not understand for a while. But then mind tells me, "everything". I did it all wrong. I want to start over. I want to be closer to my sisters, my parents, I wish I had real friends that could see under my bracelets as my smiles, someone that understands me. I want the scars to go away before people will see my insecurities as they're left on my arm and leg. I want to be smart, I want to be pretty. I wish I never quit softball. I want to be happy. I want to be optimistic and shiny. I want to be the girl that everyone wants to be, I want to be inspirational. I was to make the world have a new perspective. 

I want to change.